Stillbirth is hearing the words, ‘we are sorry there is no heartbeat’ Stillbirth is being told there isn’t an option for a caesarean that a natural birth is better for your body and for you. Stillbirth is waiting a few days for a natural labour …
This hasn’t been the easiest of weeks. It just seems every day is all about missing you, and it is hard. None of it is helped by the fact that I am so tired at the moment. Sleep is minimal and it doesn’t matter what …
Grief is the ultimate non planner, you never ever know when grief will hit, but when grief hits, it hits hard. Today was one of those days, it is 38 days to Rhianna Lily’s anniversary. When she died we were told repeatedly that time heals. …
Grief takes no prisoners, it doesn’t care if you are having a good spell, a good month, week, day or even hour. If it wants to attack it will. And when it attacks, it attacks. This year I did quite well. I was looking forward …
This weekend is mental. The next few weeks are mental. Not just a little crazy. Completely mental. And I know I have done it on purpose. It’s almost a coping mechanism nowadays. I have to charge through the month at lightening speed. Boo has made …
It doesn’t have to be a big thing. You don’t even have to be thinking about it. It just happens And you are thrown Today it was a pram Our day had been a really good day, enjoying the sun, being a family and just …
Having a Christmas with a child missing is really hard. And I think this year was probably the hardest. You see 2012 was the first year everyone expected it to be hard. Last year we were in a Boo bubble he was only 22 days …
Last Sunday was Rhianna Lily’s second birthday Her second anniversary I always struggle what to call it, it’s an odd day. It’s her birthday and her anniversary and neither seems right to say so I don’t really say anything. Last year Baba wanted to have …
Grief is an odd one you think you are ok and then something very strange sends you months back and you have to start again. Having Boo has changed the way we are grieving for Rhianna. Changed the way I am grieving. When Rhianna died …
Life goes on It really does It is horrible to say but life does go on It doesn’t mean that you don’t care It doesn’t mean that you don’t want to cry everyday It doesn’t mean that you wont cry everyday But life still goes …