Just An Earring
It’s strange what you attach to your baby when they are no longer here. The boys have memory boxes at home. I have their first outfits, they first shoes, and little bits and pieces of things that they loved and that mean a lot to …
Tag: Stillborn
How Has It Affected Them?
One thing that I have always always worried about is how Rhianna dying has affected the boys. It’s something I will never really have the answer to I don’t think. But something that I worry about every single day. Less some days more other days. …
Rhianna’s Due Date
Rhianna’s due date isn’t generally a date that floors me. The first year it was hell, it was all so raw, and it was only three months after she died. That was the worst time for her actual due date. Rhianna was due on the …
Today You Are Seven
I hate going to bed the night before your birthday. I hate waking up to silence on your birthday. I hate that there is no excited girl running into our room. I hate there are no presents wrapped downstairs. I hate there are no balloons. …
Another Week and More Flowers
This week has flown by, and I haven’t really had a chance to write, as it has been super busy. I have been sorting a lot of admin things at home, I have seen friends and been to a family funeral. So it has been …
The Reality of Grief
One reason I started to blog about Rhianna was I needed a place, a place to pour out my feelings as I found it so much easier to write than speak. But over the years the reasons I blog about Rhianna remain the same, but …
The Day You Turned Six
Yesterday was your 6th birthday. It was not a great day. The first time that your daddy ever had to work! And it didn’t work. It was horrible. And will never happen again. We tried it. It doesn’t work. He can not be working on …