Numb
I haven’t blogged for ages. I haven’t wanted to I haven’t had anything to say. I feel like my body has gone into shut down mode. I feel numb every time I think about Rhianna. It is like I have literally morphed back in time, …
Tag: Stillborn
Mother’s Day Part Two
I was dreading Mother’s Day there was a part of me that really didn’t want it to happen. The day where all the Mother’s in the world celebrate that they are a Mother and their children give them gifts and thank them. How are you …
When You Have A Photo…
Of your baby… That no one wants to see… Do you know how hard that is? It is a question that I have asked lots of people over the weekend. Do you know how hard it is to have a photo of your baby that …
Rhianna Lily’s Canvas
Since we have lost Rhianna, actually even before we lost her, when we were still pregnant with her we have wanted some canvasses for the children. Just something special with their birth dates, names and a little information about them. We have looked at the …
Hard Moments
Every so often you get a slap in the face moment. It can be anything, and it can be anywhere and you never know when it will happen but it does, and it really stings and is painful! Really painful. I have had a few …
Rhianna Lily’s Christmas
This Christmas we wanted something really special for Rhianna Lily, something that was just for her. A tribute in a way. We all wanted something to have for her, something that was special and beautiful for us to see everyday. My sister brought Baba a …
That Question
I love talking about Rhianna, to people who all ready know about Rhianna. I find the hardest thing in the world is telling people about Rhianna in the first place. When I get asked ‘that question’ how many children have you got I get stuck …
Grieving There’s No Right Or Wrong
There is no right and wrong way to grieve, grieving is such a personal thing, only you yourself can know if you are grieving correctly for you at that time in your life. But that doesn’t mean it is easy. Especially when there are three …
The Garden
This last week, with the weather getting better, and the issues we have had with Rhianna Lily’s grave (more on that another day) we have not been leaving her flowers to chance. There were four sets of flowers put on her grave (or garden as …