Stillbirth is hearing the words, ‘we are sorry there is no heartbeat’ Stillbirth is being told there isn’t an option for a caesarean that a natural birth is better for your body and for you. Stillbirth is waiting a few days for a natural labour …
Six days ago you turned four, six days ago was your birthday. It was a nice day. We got to spend it as a family. We had fun. We smiled. We got to be together. We remembered you. But it has taken me a long …
This hasn’t been the easiest of weeks. It just seems every day is all about missing you, and it is hard. None of it is helped by the fact that I am so tired at the moment. Sleep is minimal and it doesn’t matter what …
Tomorrow is one month until Rhianna Lily’s birthday and the countdown has started. It isn’t a fun countdown, no party planning, no excited child. Instead just a countdown of painful memories, nightmare, tears and pain. Oh so much pain and heartbreak. It changes every year, …
Grief is the ultimate non planner, you never ever know when grief will hit, but when grief hits, it hits hard. Today was one of those days, it is 38 days to Rhianna Lily’s anniversary. When she died we were told repeatedly that time heals. …
Grief takes no prisoners, it doesn’t care if you are having a good spell, a good month, week, day or even hour. If it wants to attack it will. And when it attacks, it attacks. This year I did quite well. I was looking forward …
How do you remember your baby girl who was born sleeping? How do you remember your boys baby sister, and your boys big sister when they have never spent time with her or met her? How do you do something that is right and is …
Today marks the start of baby loss awareness week. 1 in 4 families are affected by baby loss or infant loss, and it has come to light that many people don’t know how to offer support to people affected or are too scared to bring …
There is nothing more to say than this. I am a mother to four children. But I only have two beside me. Two physically growing in front of our eyes. But there should be six of us. Not just four. Rhianna Lily died. She died …
I have been quite quiet, October is Pregnancy Loss and Awareness Month, the last two years I have really shouted about this month. Breaking the taboo. And I wanted to again this year. But you know what I don’t have the energy. I want to …