Grief
One thing I hate about grief is the unpredictability of it. You can never tell when it will hit. You can never predict when you won’t be ok. And you really live your life on the edge of a cliff for the rest of your …
Tag: Late Miscarriage
The Final Goodbye
No one should bury their child! No one should stand at a graveside and watch their child’s coffin be lowered into the ground! 6 years ago we did just that. We stood and watched. Watched the tiniest grave be filled by the tiniest coffin. No …
The Day You Turned Six
Yesterday was your 6th birthday. It was not a great day. The first time that your daddy ever had to work! And it didn’t work. It was horrible. And will never happen again. We tried it. It doesn’t work. He can not be working on …
Six Years Ago We Found Out You Were A Girl
6 years ago we found out you were a little girl. 6 years ago we decided on your name. 6 years ago our lives were so happy. So naive You feel pregnant you got a gorgeous baby at the end of it and it was …
Miscarriage, Late Miscarriage, Stillbirth and No Birth Certificate
This past week I have been following the news about registering your baby if they are born before 24 weeks, and listened to MP Sharon Hodgson talking in parliament about her stillborn baby, who never received a birth certificate as she was born a couple …
Rhianna’s Stillbirth and Us
We knew that Rhianna had died, three days before she was born, so we knew what we were doing when we went into hospital and into the delivery suite, because we and the midwives knew what has happening, we were taken to a room slightly …
Rhianna Lily’s Birthday
Last week was Rhianna’s birthday. And as per usual it was a hard week. We spent a lot of the week trying to decide what to do for her birthday because for the first time since her first birthday Mr L and I were on …
Grief is so Complicated
One thing I have learnt since Rhianna died is that every year since it isn’t just her birthday that is hard. It is something that lasts for such a long time. And Mr L and I literally have to drag ourselves through a long time …
Birthdays, Loss, and Surviving
These last two weeks have flown by and before I have known it, the day has gone and I haven’t really stopped. It has been my birthday which was lovely, I had a birthday that fell on the weekend which meant that all the boys …
Breaking the Taboo of Babyloss
This week Coronation Street are doing a stillbirth storyline, or a technically speaking ‘late miscarriage’ I hate this term with a passion and will discuss it more in a bit. I am not a massive Coronation Street fan, if it is on I will watch …