One thing that I have always always worried about is how Rhianna dying has affected the boys. It’s something I will never really have the answer to I don’t think. But something that I worry about every single day. Less some days more other days. …
Mother’s day is always a hard one for me. Probably the hardest day of the year. Rhianna’s birthday is hell, but it is all about her. I can cry, scream and be unhappy because it is her day. Christmas day is never fun, but the …
When Rhianna died a very good friend of mine brought me a necklace, it was Rhianna’s necklace and I loved it. That friend is no longer in my life, and I put the necklace to the side as it was just to full of memories …
April threw me, I never ever expected to be so upset about the school admissions letters, the one that we missed out on, the one that Rhianna should have had but never got to receive. It floored me, and took me ages to get back …
Four years have passed since Rhianna Lily died, everyday we live our life, and life is good, we are happy, we smile, but we live our life with Rhianna’s fleeting moments. Four years ago seems like such a lifetime ago now. But at the same …
This weekend is mental. The next few weeks are mental. Not just a little crazy. Completely mental. And I know I have done it on purpose. It’s almost a coping mechanism nowadays. I have to charge through the month at lightening speed. Boo has made …
Ages ago we decided to make Rhianna a fairy garden in our garden when we sorted it. We have tried since loosing her to grow plants successfully and it has never really happened, but over the years Baba and now Boo have brought lots of …
Life is manic and I love it. I love running around after the boys. Visiting friends Spending time with the family Going to lessons Visiting places and watching them grow We are busy in the house Busy moving things around decorating Changing things Busy in …