Grief takes no prisoners, it doesn’t care if you are having a good spell, a good month, week, day or even hour. If it wants to attack it will. And when it attacks, it attacks. This year I did quite well. I was looking forward …
Loosing a child is hard I think that is an obvious statement. But Baba was around. However hard it was at the time, he was around, he experienced her loss, and he know she was here and then she wasn’t here and he will never …
This weekend is mental. The next few weeks are mental. Not just a little crazy. Completely mental. And I know I have done it on purpose. It’s almost a coping mechanism nowadays. I have to charge through the month at lightening speed. Boo has made …
I love birthdays, I have always loved my birthday. I love the boys birthdays even more than my own. I love the lead up to their birthdays, the excitement and watching them open their presents, the joy on their faces and everything about them. I …
How do you remember your baby girl who was born sleeping? How do you remember your boys baby sister, and your boys big sister when they have never spent time with her or met her? How do you do something that is right and is …
There is nothing more to say than this. I am a mother to four children. But I only have two beside me. Two physically growing in front of our eyes. But there should be six of us. Not just four. Rhianna Lily died. She died …
I have been quite quiet, October is Pregnancy Loss and Awareness Month, the last two years I have really shouted about this month. Breaking the taboo. And I wanted to again this year. But you know what I don’t have the energy. I want to …
Today we went shopping, nothing different there. While we were shopping, we booked a photography session, they were advertising an offer and Mr L mentioned that we have never had a professional, in a studio, photography session with Boo. We did it with Baba, but …
Last night I was catching up on EastEnders, (told you I was obsessed with the show, and yes I do know it isn’t real) but I was watching the Coker story, where Les finally tells Pam about him and Claudette. I was sat watching it …
Ages ago we decided to make Rhianna a fairy garden in our garden when we sorted it. We have tried since loosing her to grow plants successfully and it has never really happened, but over the years Baba and now Boo have brought lots of …