Last week Baba started year three and there was a significant missing piece this year. I tried my hardest not to let Rhianna being missing to overshadow the day, but it was flipping hard to not let it all be about her. It was a …
I have always loved peacocks. Something about a peacock is so magical and amazing. They are stunning, beautiful and magnificent animals and something I am always in awe of when I see them. Since loosing Rhianna they have become more magical. More of a sign …
When Rhianna died a very good friend of mine brought me a necklace, it was Rhianna’s necklace and I loved it. That friend is no longer in my life, and I put the necklace to the side as it was just to full of memories …
April threw me, I never ever expected to be so upset about the school admissions letters, the one that we missed out on, the one that Rhianna should have had but never got to receive. It floored me, and took me ages to get back …
Four years have passed since Rhianna Lily died, everyday we live our life, and life is good, we are happy, we smile, but we live our life with Rhianna’s fleeting moments. Four years ago seems like such a lifetime ago now. But at the same …
Six days ago you turned four, six days ago was your birthday. It was a nice day. We got to spend it as a family. We had fun. We smiled. We got to be together. We remembered you. But it has taken me a long …
You would think four years on we would be prepared, we would know it is coming, we would know what to do, we would know what to expect. We don’t. You see the problem is every year is a little different. No year the pain …
This hasn’t been the easiest of weeks. It just seems every day is all about missing you, and it is hard. None of it is helped by the fact that I am so tired at the moment. Sleep is minimal and it doesn’t matter what …
Tomorrow is one month until Rhianna Lily’s birthday and the countdown has started. It isn’t a fun countdown, no party planning, no excited child. Instead just a countdown of painful memories, nightmare, tears and pain. Oh so much pain and heartbreak. It changes every year, …
Grief is the ultimate non planner, you never ever know when grief will hit, but when grief hits, it hits hard. Today was one of those days, it is 38 days to Rhianna Lily’s anniversary. When she died we were told repeatedly that time heals. …