The last couple of days have been quite hard for me. I don’t know why. There is no significant reason why. But I have really been missing Rhianna. There is no special birthdays coming up, there is no special events or reasons. It has just …
I follow a few people who have lost children, and a few other people that are in depths of grieve. I suppose in some way it finds you. You are part of a club, that you never wanted to be included in but a club …
It’s never an easy one. Celebrations of any kind are hard when you have a child missing. I really feel it on all of them. So does Mr L. I think I find Mother’s Day very hard as it is the day that you celebrate …
I woke up today missing you. I wake up every day missing you. Today for some reason I missed you more. There is no reason why it should be different. It’s just a normal June Saturday. But today I woke up missing you more than …
The beginning of the lockdown in the UK fell on Rhiannas birthday and it broke my heart. Nearly two months later my heart is still broken about her birthday being in lockdown. Having a birthday in lockdown is an amazing thing. It’s a historical thing. …
Today is International Bereaved Mothers Day, I haven’t really talked about Rhianna recently because if I am honest I am finding it pretty hard. I have buried it I suppose. But having her birthday the first day of the lockdown and not being prepared to …
One thing that has come out of this lockdown is that we, like many families in similar positions, haven’t been to Rhianna’s grave since before the lockdown started. We obviously couldn’t go for her birthday as we were already in the lockdown, we didn’t go …
Today you turn 8. In some parallel universe we would be celebrating hard, having a party. A room full of girls, screaming and laughing and having a lot of fun. Instead it’s quiet. So so quiet. There is no laughter today. Today is harder than …
Today I have struggled. And I am not ashamed to admit it. 8 years on some days are still a struggle. Grief doesn’t just stop. It doesn’t go away. More days are good than bad. But there are still bad days. Today was a bad …
