Happy New Year and a Happy 2020
It’s New Year’s Eve and tomorrow a new year and a new decade starts. And I want to wish you all a Happy New Year and a Happy 2020 But I am being a bit of a grump to be honest. It started yesterday when …
Tag: Life Without Rhianna Lily
Rhianna’s Christmas
It is so hard to find something smaller enough for Rhianna’s grave every year. Every year we always search and search. Wreaths are generally too big and cover Rhianna’s whole grave. And with the bits that she has on there all year it is hard …
Christmas Day 2019
So yesterday happened in a whirlwind of activity and everyone was spoilt and it was a fab day. And it was a fab day. The boys got presents. Rhianna got presents. I didn’t cry. It’s taken me seven years but this year I didn’t cry. …
Christmas Is Just Around The Corner
And just like that I seemed to have blinked and Christmas is literally only a couple of days away! I am not really sure what has happened. It hasn’t crept up on me this year it has completely bulldozed into my life. We are pretty …
Longing For A Child
When you loose a child you hear the saying that you are in a club that you never signed up to be in, but you are in that club forever. And it can be the best worse club in the world, you find support like …
Father’s Day
It’s Father’s Day and I would like to be blogging about the beautiful day we have been having. When the truth is it has been a bloody difficult day. It’s been emotional, draining and tiring. The kids have been great at times and then really …
How Can I Make Them Understand
I am in a few baby loss groups, its like our own community, the club you have never wanted to be a member of but are for life. And something that comes up quite often is how can I make them understand, how can I …
Rhianna’s Headstone
Yesterday we spent some time discusses Rhianna’s headstone, once again. Currently she just has the plaque with her name on at her gravestone, but we really want her to eventually have a headstone. But things have always got in the way. Mainly the fact that …
Today You Are Seven
I hate going to bed the night before your birthday. I hate waking up to silence on your birthday. I hate that there is no excited girl running into our room. I hate there are no presents wrapped downstairs. I hate there are no balloons. …