Christmas Is Just Around The Corner

And just like that I seemed to have blinked and Christmas is literally only a couple of days away!

I am not really sure what has happened.

It hasn’t crept up on me this year it has completely bulldozed into my life.

We are pretty ready though.

We have all the presents, and they are wrapped, we have all the food and the only thing left to do is get the house tidy for everyone to come on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day.

Once that is done we are ready.

Physically anyway.

Mentally is another matter.

Today is not a good day for not having a child with you at Christmas time.

And we are all struggling.

And to be honest the best thing to do right now is shut down and hide away.

I have been feeling bad for a couple of days.

I hate being sad at Christmas and I try my hardest to not do it.

But I always get caught out and made to feel rotten and sad.

And it ruins days around Christmas.

I wish I could do a whole Christmas with no tears.

I don’t remember a Christmas just full of laughter and fun.

And it is so depressing to say that.

And I hate it.

So much.

And it is never going to change.

And that makes me hate it even more.

I wish it would be different!