Missing You
I woke up today missing you. I wake up every day missing you. Today for some reason I missed you more. There is no reason why it should be different. It’s just a normal June Saturday. But today I woke up missing you more than …
Tag: Life Without Rhianna Lily
An Unmemorable Birthday
The beginning of the lockdown in the UK fell on Rhiannas birthday and it broke my heart. Nearly two months later my heart is still broken about her birthday being in lockdown. Having a birthday in lockdown is an amazing thing. It’s a historical thing. …
Missing Your Space
One thing that has come out of this lockdown is that we, like many families in similar positions, haven’t been to Rhianna’s grave since before the lockdown started. We obviously couldn’t go for her birthday as we were already in the lockdown, we didn’t go …
Rhianna and the Beach
Whenever I am having a bad day. Whenever I am missing Rhianna the hardest. I want to head to the beach. There is a pull I will never understand. A pull that the beach is her place. I just know in the depths of my …
Rhianna’s Flowers
If you have been here a while you will know that through March we always have some flowers in the house. It was something BB started a couple of years ago, just by mentioning in passing how nice it would be to have flowers in …
And Once Again It’s March
And just like that it’s March again. The month that is notoriously a bad month. One that I dread. One that I hate. But one that I have to get through every year. I never know how to tackle March. I never know how I …
And It Hits You
I have been feeling out of sorts all week. I hate this time of year. There is no denying how much I hate it. Some years it’s fine. Other years it isn’t. This year is a particularly bad year. I am dreading getting closer and …
How Has It Affected Them?
One thing that I have always always worried about is how Rhianna dying has affected the boys. It’s something I will never really have the answer to I don’t think. But something that I worry about every single day. Less some days more other days. …
Missing You
I have been absent for a while. Truth be told I have been struggling this month. As you know I found the new year difficult, moving onto another decade, leaving the only decade Rhianna existed behind. I really struggled with it and I haven’t really …
“But I miss Rhianna”
There is nothing harder for a parent than watching your child in pain. There is nothing harder as a parent watching your child in tears. There is nothing harder as a parent seeing your child in pain and tears and not being able to do …