Next month you have been gone for nine years. When I write it down it doesn’t seem possible. Do you know nine years is 108 months, 3287 days with out you. 3287 days! I don’t really know how to comprehend it anymore it is a …
So we have decorated the lounge, and Rhianna has a new space for all of her beautiful bits and pieces. Her pink table has gone. Her stuff is no longer in the corner. Everything that has been brought for her is now pride of place …
Nine years ago today we announced we were pregnant with Rhianna Lily. I didn’t remember it. Instead I woke up with a memory of it on my Facebook. There it was just staring at me. It definitely stopped me in my tracks. I wasn’t expecting …
Grief is a strange thing, it’s a strange thing in a normal year, in the middle of a pandemic it is an even stranger thing. It is the smallest things, that can make you think. I am not talking about falling into a flood of …
It’s something you don’t really think about, missing a child and having a holiday. But it is something that comes up every year. When we go away we miss Rhianna. I remember the first time we ever went away without Rhianna the first thing that …
Rhianna’s shelves have needed a bit of a freshen up and face-lift for a while. They had become very weathered and a bit of a dumping ground. Yesterday I decided to do something about it. We cleared out all of the shelves and cleared all …
The last couple of days have been quite hard for me. I don’t know why. There is no significant reason why. But I have really been missing Rhianna. There is no special birthdays coming up, there is no special events or reasons. It has just …
I follow a few people who have lost children, and a few other people that are in depths of grieve. I suppose in some way it finds you. You are part of a club, that you never wanted to be included in but a club …
It’s never an easy one. Celebrations of any kind are hard when you have a child missing. I really feel it on all of them. So does Mr L. I think I find Mother’s Day very hard as it is the day that you celebrate …