Today I Have Struggled
Today I have struggled. And I am not ashamed to admit it. 8 years on some days are still a struggle. Grief doesn’t just stop. It doesn’t go away. More days are good than bad. But there are still bad days. Today was a bad …
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Rhianna and the Beach
Whenever I am having a bad day. Whenever I am missing Rhianna the hardest. I want to head to the beach. There is a pull I will never understand. A pull that the beach is her place. I just know in the depths of my …
Rhianna’s Flowers
If you have been here a while you will know that through March we always have some flowers in the house. It was something BB started a couple of years ago, just by mentioning in passing how nice it would be to have flowers in …
And Once Again It’s March
And just like that it’s March again. The month that is notoriously a bad month. One that I dread. One that I hate. But one that I have to get through every year. I never know how to tackle March. I never know how I …
My Sisters Favourite Colour is Pink and Purple
Yesterday Boo had a friend round and after we had spent the day at the farm we came home and they played and we did some art together. I got out the hama beads, that we haven’t had out for ages and ages to be …
And It Hits You
I have been feeling out of sorts all week. I hate this time of year. There is no denying how much I hate it. Some years it’s fine. Other years it isn’t. This year is a particularly bad year. I am dreading getting closer and …
How Has It Affected Them?
One thing that I have always always worried about is how Rhianna dying has affected the boys. It’s something I will never really have the answer to I don’t think. But something that I worry about every single day. Less some days more other days. …
Missing You
I have been absent for a while. Truth be told I have been struggling this month. As you know I found the new year difficult, moving onto another decade, leaving the only decade Rhianna existed behind. I really struggled with it and I haven’t really …