Two
Two. It was easier to answer two. Two instead of three but our daughter died. Easier to just be told, how lovely. Easier to carry on a happy conversation. How old are they? Reply with their ages and get an aww lovely reply. Today I …
Tag: Babyloss
Babyloss Awareness Week 2020
Babyloss Awareness Week isn’t for me. It isn’t for Mr L. It isn’t for Big Bro or Boo. Babyloss awareness week isn’t for any of us, because we miss Rhianna every single day. We miss her every waking moment. We miss the girl she would …
Babyloss Awareness Month
October is Babyloss Awareness Month with the Babyloss Awareness Week being held between the 9th and 15th of October finishing with the Wave of Light on the 15th of October. It is something we have always talked about since Rhianna died, something that I think …
Missing You Always
The last couple of days have been quite hard for me. I don’t know why. There is no significant reason why. But I have really been missing Rhianna. There is no special birthdays coming up, there is no special events or reasons. It has just …
Fathers Day With A Child Missing
It’s never an easy one. Celebrations of any kind are hard when you have a child missing. I really feel it on all of them. So does Mr L. I think I find Mother’s Day very hard as it is the day that you celebrate …
An Unmemorable Birthday
The beginning of the lockdown in the UK fell on Rhiannas birthday and it broke my heart. Nearly two months later my heart is still broken about her birthday being in lockdown. Having a birthday in lockdown is an amazing thing. It’s a historical thing. …
International Bereaved Mothers Day
Today is International Bereaved Mothers Day, I haven’t really talked about Rhianna recently because if I am honest I am finding it pretty hard. I have buried it I suppose. But having her birthday the first day of the lockdown and not being prepared to …
Missing Your Space
One thing that has come out of this lockdown is that we, like many families in similar positions, haven’t been to Rhianna’s grave since before the lockdown started. We obviously couldn’t go for her birthday as we were already in the lockdown, we didn’t go …
Today You Are Eight
Today you turn 8. In some parallel universe we would be celebrating hard, having a party. A room full of girls, screaming and laughing and having a lot of fun. Instead it’s quiet. So so quiet. There is no laughter today. Today is harder than …
