Quiet

I am a bit quiet at the moment

I don’t really have anything to say

I think most people know how we are feeling coming into March

And leading up to Rhianna’s birthday.

It is never easy.

But I feel a bit like I am repeating myself.

Posts I wrote 8 years ago.

Still apply today.

Posts I wrote 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2 and 1 year ago still apply today.

I feel I have said it all before.

I feel like I still need to say it.

But at the same time I have already said it.

So I don’t really know what to write at the moment.

I want it said.

I want people to realise it doesn’t go away.

Time is a healer.

But time is not THE healer.

Time makes things easier.

Time doesn’t make the pain go away.

It will never go away.

And in a way that makes me feel even sadder.

Because this pain is never going to disappear

Life will never be what it used to be

There will always be this pain

This missing piece

This missing child

This missing part of our family

Time makes living with it easier

Time doesn’t make it go away

And it is hard to be living that

All day every day.

So I don’t really know what to say any more.

This month is hard

It will always be hard.

And time doesn’t heal it all.