Tag: Babyloss

Babyloss Awareness Week 2021

Babyloss Awareness Week 2021

It’s babyloss awareness week, and I have to say this week it’s a tough one. I get it. I know why it’s important and it’s so so important. But when your nine years in I think it’s hard to keep going on about the fact 

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month

October is here and October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, with Babyloss Awareness Week in the middle from the 9th to 15th of October. It is a month and week that is important. That should be shouted about. That more people should be 

Just An Earring

Just An Earring

It’s strange what you attach to your baby when they are no longer here. The boys have memory boxes at home. I have their first outfits, they first shoes, and little bits and pieces of things that they loved and that mean a lot to 

You

You

All I want to do is write about you. The one thing I don’t want to do is write about you. So I say nothing. I don’t write. I stay silent. There is nothing I haven’t already said. Nothing is different. The memories are there. 

Less Than A Week

Less Than A Week

It’s less than a week till your birthday. Less than a week till your anniversary. And this year I just don’t really know how I am feeling about it all. It’s a tough year. It’s a unique year. I think both of them are massive 

Tired

Tired

I am tired. Tired of missing you. Tired of feeling this numbness. Tired of celebrations always having a twinge of sadness. Tired of loving children here, and you there. Tired of being split in two. Tired of being the family that lost a baby. Tired 

Nine Years

Nine Years

Next month you have been gone for nine years. When I write it down it doesn’t seem possible. Do you know nine years is 108 months, 3287 days with out you. 3287 days! I don’t really know how to comprehend it anymore it is a 

Rhiannas New Space

Rhiannas New Space

So we have decorated the lounge, and Rhianna has a new space for all of her beautiful bits and pieces. Her pink table has gone. Her stuff is no longer in the corner. Everything that has been brought for her is now pride of place 

Nine Years Today

Nine Years Today

Nine years ago today we announced we were pregnant with Rhianna Lily. I didn’t remember it. Instead I woke up with a memory of it on my Facebook. There it was just staring at me. It definitely stopped me in my tracks. I wasn’t expecting 

It’s The Little Things

It’s The Little Things

Grief is a strange thing, it’s a strange thing in a normal year, in the middle of a pandemic it is an even stranger thing. It is the smallest things, that can make you think. I am not talking about falling into a flood of