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Remembering You

Remembering You

Remembering you is all we can do. So we make sure we do it as well as we can every day. Every year we add something to your garden shelves outside. This year we are combining your flowers from your Nanny with your garden addition. 

Survival

Survival

Today I sat and did my make up. Honestly for the first time in what seemed like forever. I got up, I washed my face and I did my make up. As I stood there doing my make up, I wondered what I was doing. 

10 Years Tomorrow

10 Years Tomorrow

Tomorrow is our little girls 10th birthday Usually I have a lot to say about Rhiannas birthday. This year I am not sure how you process 10 whole years without her I am not sure how you explain 10 years of silence I am not 

Too Many

Too Many

I have too many ideas in my head. Too many dates to remember. Too many dates I would rather avoid. Too many to do’s. Too many things to finish. Too many things to start. Too many words to say. Too many memories to live back 

March

March

March has arrived. The month I love. The month I hate. It’s the month that is all about Rhianna. It’s the month I want to forget all about. It’s the month I want to remember every moment. It’s full of conflictions. It’s full of pain. 

Rhianna’s Shelves

Rhianna’s Shelves

Every year we update Rhianna’s shelves in the garden, this year was no different. I woke up the other day and decided to update her shelves. This year I really wanted her shelves to be bright and colourful, they have been different shades of white 

Ten Years

Ten Years

For nearly ten years we have walked this walk now. Ten years we have walked up the path to stand at your garden. Sometimes daily. Sometimes weekly. Sometimes only when we can bare it. The amount of visits really don’t matter. Ten years we have 

Waves

Waves

Grief comes in waves. You never really know when it will hit. You think you can predict it. And you can’t. You think you know when a day will be a bad day. And it can be fine. Then a day that you have no 

Grief Is Hard

Grief Is Hard

I haven’t blogged much this week, because you know what grief is hard. You focus so much on the anniversaries, and the birthdays and celebrations that actually those days are never that difficult. Its the days after. They are the ones I feel the worst 

Wave of Light 2021

Wave of Light 2021

We don’t just remember you today. We don’t just miss you today. Every waking moment we think of you, we miss you. In our dreams we live our alternative life with you in it. Our broken hearts carry on forever changed. Forever missing a piece