Four Years On
You would think four years on we would be prepared, we would know it is coming, we would know what to do, we would know what to expect. We don’t. You see the problem is every year is a little different. No year the pain …
Tag: Anniversary
The Countdown
Tomorrow is one month until Rhianna Lily’s birthday and the countdown has started. It isn’t a fun countdown, no party planning, no excited child. Instead just a countdown of painful memories, nightmare, tears and pain. Oh so much pain and heartbreak. It changes every year, …
When Grief Hits…
Grief is the ultimate non planner, you never ever know when grief will hit, but when grief hits, it hits hard. Today was one of those days, it is 38 days to Rhianna Lily’s anniversary. When she died we were told repeatedly that time heals. …
Dropping The Anniversary
A week today is Rhianna Lily’s birthday A week today is Rhianna Lily’s anniversary For three years we have celebrated her birthday and anniversary all in one day. But we really haven’t Rhianna’s birthday / anniversary comes and we are so very touched with the …
Grief is Selfish – That’s Sometimes Good and Sometimes Bad
Grief is very selfish In some ways that is good in others it isn’t Everyone has to deal with grief in their own way Everyone is different So it is good that there is no right and wrong way to grieve as no one does …
Six Weeks Time
Six weeks Only six weeks until you haven’t been here for three years Six weeks until we lost you Six weeks until we held you for the first time Six weeks until we held you for the last time I should be running around trying …
Second Birthday
Last Sunday was Rhianna Lily’s second birthday Her second anniversary I always struggle what to call it, it’s an odd day. It’s her birthday and her anniversary and neither seems right to say so I don’t really say anything. Last year Baba wanted to have …
The Day After The Day Before
I always thought Rhianna Lily’s birthday would be the worst day. But it wasn’t as bad as I actually thought it would be. It was busy, that was probably a good thing. But it was a day all about Rhianna. We laughed, especially after a …
Pain, Hurt and Tears
I always knew I was going to find this hard. It has been on my mind for a long time. Working out what we are going to do, how we are going to do things. And thinking of things to do. But I never knew …