Seven and a Half Years

Seven and a Half Years

Next week Rhianna would be seven and a half years old. And I have been feeling it the last couple of days. Not missing her anymore than we all miss her every moment of every single day as that is a given. We always miss 

Words

Words

Today I read a post on Facebook that was full of pictures of what people say to parents who have experienced babyloss, good and bad things that are said. It reminded me a lot of the post I wrote years ago about what people say 

Back To Routine, Back To Normality

Back To Routine, Back To Normality

So today the boys went back to school, normality is resumed and the routine is back. I always find this day a funny old day. It’s a day that I always think of Rhianna. That sounds a bit stupid I always think of her, but 

Holidaying With A Child Missing

Holidaying With A Child Missing

Going on holiday is a fantastic time, I think with most families. But when you are missing a child holidays can be hard. You can be enjoying every single moment of the holiday and then suddenly the realisation that one of your children is missing 

Always A Space

Always A Space

Today we all went for a walk and the boys had a play in the park. It really was for Boo as BB isn’t a great lover of parks but he does it for his brother as he loves it so much. After the park 

Rhianna’s Shelves

Rhianna’s Shelves

Rhianna’s shelves have been up for quite a few years now. Every summer they get a little blitz and a clean and that is all that they need to look perfect again. We spend a lot more time in the garden now that it has 

Beach Life

Beach Life

Yesterday we found a new beach to explore. We weren’t actually looking for a beach but we happened to come across it so went for a little mooch. Our boys are at their happiest on a beach. It doesn’t have to be a hot day 

What Would You Be?

What Would You Be?

You will always be my biggest wonder? The one I dream about. The one I think about. The one I fantasize about. What would you be if you were here? It’s a question I ask myself repeatedly, every single day I don’t ask it to 

What Do You See? What Do You Dream?

What Do You See? What Do You Dream?

What do you see when you look at photos of your children? Do you see laughter, fun, love, your world? I see that too. But I also see a gap. A small gap, where our daughter should be. A gap where their sister should be. 

Longing For A Child

Longing For A Child

When you loose a child you hear the saying that you are in a club that you never signed up to be in, but you are in that club forever. And it can be the best worse club in the world, you find support like