When Grief Hits…

When Grief Hits…

Grief is the ultimate non planner, you never ever know when grief will hit, but when grief hits, it hits hard. Today was one of those days, it is 38 days to Rhianna Lily’s anniversary. When she died we were told repeatedly that time heals. 

Grief Takes No Prisoners

Grief Takes No Prisoners

Grief takes no prisoners, it doesn’t care if you are having a good spell, a good month, week, day or even hour. If it wants to attack it will. And when it attacks, it attacks. This year I did quite well. I was looking forward 

My Sister…

My Sister…

Loosing a child is hard I think that is an obvious statement. But Baba was around. However hard it was at the time, he was around, he experienced her loss, and he know she was here and then she wasn’t here and he will never 

Christmas and Grief

Christmas and Grief

This weekend is mental. The next few weeks are mental. Not just a little crazy. Completely mental. And I know I have done it on purpose. It’s almost a coping mechanism nowadays. I have to charge through the month at lightening speed. Boo has made 

The Night Before

The Night Before

I love birthdays, I have always loved my birthday. I love the boys birthdays even more than my own. I love the lead up to their birthdays, the excitement and watching them open their presents, the joy on their faces and everything about them. I 

Baby Loss Awareness Week – Remembering Rhianna Lily

Baby Loss Awareness Week – Remembering Rhianna Lily

How do you remember your baby girl who was born sleeping? How do you remember your boys baby sister, and your boys big sister when they have never spent time with her or met her? How do you do something that is right and is 

Baby Loss Awareness Week – How Can You Help…

Baby Loss Awareness Week – How Can You Help…

Today marks the start of baby loss awareness week.  1 in 4 families are affected by baby loss or infant loss, and it has come to light that many people don’t know how to offer support to people affected or are too scared to bring 

#ThisIsMyTruth

#ThisIsMyTruth

There is nothing more to say than this. I am a mother to four children. But I only have two beside me. Two physically growing in front of our eyes. But there should be six of us. Not just four. Rhianna Lily died. She died 

October Pregnancy Loss and Awareness Month

October Pregnancy Loss and Awareness Month

I have been quite quiet, October is Pregnancy Loss and Awareness Month, the last two years I have really shouted about this month. Breaking the taboo. And I wanted to again this year. But you know what I don’t have the energy. I want to 

A Family Photo

A Family Photo

Today we went shopping, nothing different there. While we were shopping, we booked a photography session, they were advertising an offer and Mr L mentioned that we have never had a professional, in a studio, photography session with Boo. We did it with Baba, but