So it is finally March. Our worst month. One that I dread starting but one that I also hate finishing. Starting the month means it is Rhianna’s birthday in a few short days. Ending the month means it isn’t Rhianna’s birthday for another year. Grief …
Yesterday I went to see a friend and while I was there they gave me this candle holder for Rhianna Lily. They brought it for her birthday, but due to both Mr L and I really feeling it this week, before the month of March …
I strongly believe as a mum we have an invisible connection to our children. Since giving birth to BB and Boo I know if they are ill, or need me. The mother’s instinct. Since loosing Rhianna I don’t think anything breaks that connection. Not even …
This time of year is hard. It is a time of year that we are always ill. And it is a time of year that Mr L and I feel our worse. This month leading up to Rhianna’s birthday is a struggle. We know it …
Last week we took down the Christmas decorations and the boys were desperate not to take down Rhianna’s tree or move her table away. Boo was the first one to ask if we could keep her tree and table, and then BB agreed and then …
At the beginning of the month we went to Winchester Christmas Market and one of the stalls were selling these gorgeous paper stars that go over your indoor lights. I loved them all and happened to mention to Mr L that they would be a …
Christmas is so hard when you have a child missing. So hard. This year I am really finding it difficult and have already had a wobble about missing Rhianna and we are only on day five. One thing that I think is evident in everything …
It’s a hard thing to work out, remembering your daughter in heaven at Christmas. It is something we change most years. Something we struggle with every year. Over the years we have had Santa leave a balloon, go visit her grave, not go visit her …
When Rhianna died one thing I was really worried about was people not remembering Rhianna, that only myself and her daddy would make an effort to remember her. I have been proved wrong so many times when it comes to the boys. Only last week …