When your daughter lives in heaven days are hard. Special days are even harder. When your the daddy of a daughter or son in heaven they can be even harder. They can be lonely, there can be no support and all the pressure placed on …
Rhianna’s due date isn’t generally a date that floors me. The first year it was hell, it was all so raw, and it was only three months after she died. That was the worst time for her actual due date. Rhianna was due on the …
When Rhianna Lily died the world revolved around me. Where ever we went people asked me how I was, if I was ok, had I eaten, was I sleeping, gave me a hug, sent me messages and kept an eye on me. Mr L was …
At the weekend I was on social media and saw a person I follow announce their pregnancy and then she showed her mummy to be presents from her partner for her last Mother’s Day before baby comes, or her first Mother’s Day if you think …
I am in a few baby loss groups, its like our own community, the club you have never wanted to be a member of but are for life. And something that comes up quite often is how can I make them understand, how can I …
This last week BB has been in France on his first residential trip. He went on Monday and came back on Friday, shattered but having loved every single minute of it. When he came home the first thing he said to me was that he …
Yesterday we spent some time discusses Rhianna’s headstone, once again. Currently she just has the plaque with her name on at her gravestone, but we really want her to eventually have a headstone. But things have always got in the way. Mainly the fact that …
I hate going to bed the night before your birthday. I hate waking up to silence on your birthday. I hate that there is no excited girl running into our room. I hate there are no presents wrapped downstairs. I hate there are no balloons. …
Seven years today we knew your heart had stopped beating. Seven years today only family and close friends knew our pain. Seven years today we had stopped so many people in their tracks. Seven years today we laid in bed and our phones silently pinged …