At the beginning of the month we went to Winchester Christmas Market and one of the stalls were selling these gorgeous paper stars that go over your indoor lights. I loved them all and happened to mention to Mr L that they would be a …
Christmas is so hard when you have a child missing. So hard. This year I am really finding it difficult and have already had a wobble about missing Rhianna and we are only on day five. One thing that I think is evident in everything …
It’s a hard thing to work out, remembering your daughter in heaven at Christmas. It is something we change most years. Something we struggle with every year. Over the years we have had Santa leave a balloon, go visit her grave, not go visit her …
When Rhianna died one thing I was really worried about was people not remembering Rhianna, that only myself and her daddy would make an effort to remember her. I have been proved wrong so many times when it comes to the boys. Only last week …
I have always had a bit of thing about Butterflies, I find them totally fascinating, and beautiful. Always have. I love to watch them when they are flying about. There is something magical about how they fly, unlike other insects, and no I don’t feel …
Last week was Rhianna’s birthday. And as per usual it was a hard week. We spent a lot of the week trying to decide what to do for her birthday because for the first time since her first birthday Mr L and I were on …
I decided yesterday that Rhianna’s flowers that Boo picked on the first of the month would need to be replaced today. After Baba had cubs we had to nip to the shops, and we decided then that he would choose her next bunch of flowers …
Yesterday I wrote about Baba’s idea of a month of flowers for Rhianna Lily. Today I saw these flowers in our front garden. At first I didn’t know what they were and was baffled where they had come from. Then after some chatting with a …
When Rhianna died a very good friend of mine brought me a necklace, it was Rhianna’s necklace and I loved it. That friend is no longer in my life, and I put the necklace to the side as it was just to full of memories …
April threw me, I never ever expected to be so upset about the school admissions letters, the one that we missed out on, the one that Rhianna should have had but never got to receive. It floored me, and took me ages to get back …