Nine years ago today we announced we were pregnant with Rhianna Lily. I didn’t remember it. Instead I woke up with a memory of it on my Facebook. There it was just staring at me. It definitely stopped me in my tracks. I wasn’t expecting …
It’s something you don’t really think about, missing a child and having a holiday. But it is something that comes up every year. When we go away we miss Rhianna. I remember the first time we ever went away without Rhianna the first thing that …
It’s never an easy one. Celebrations of any kind are hard when you have a child missing. I really feel it on all of them. So does Mr L. I think I find Mother’s Day very hard as it is the day that you celebrate …
Whenever I am having a bad day. Whenever I am missing Rhianna the hardest. I want to head to the beach. There is a pull I will never understand. A pull that the beach is her place. I just know in the depths of my …
I have been feeling out of sorts all week. I hate this time of year. There is no denying how much I hate it. Some years it’s fine. Other years it isn’t. This year is a particularly bad year. I am dreading getting closer and …
I have been absent for a while. Truth be told I have been struggling this month. As you know I found the new year difficult, moving onto another decade, leaving the only decade Rhianna existed behind. I really struggled with it and I haven’t really …
There is nothing harder for a parent than watching your child in pain. There is nothing harder as a parent watching your child in tears. There is nothing harder as a parent seeing your child in pain and tears and not being able to do …
When you loose a child you hear the saying that you are in a club that you never signed up to be in, but you are in that club forever. And it can be the best worse club in the world, you find support like …
It’s Father’s Day and I would like to be blogging about the beautiful day we have been having. When the truth is it has been a bloody difficult day. It’s been emotional, draining and tiring. The kids have been great at times and then really …
Rhianna’s due date isn’t generally a date that floors me. The first year it was hell, it was all so raw, and it was only three months after she died. That was the worst time for her actual due date. Rhianna was due on the …