Pain

Grief is a funny thing

You think you are ok

Really ok

And then it suddenly hits you

And you don’t know what to do

You are finally back a square one and everything you have achieved seems gone

You don’t ever miss them less

You don’t ever think about them less

But life does go on

It is a horrible and cruel thing to say

And it was the statement that I hated the most when Rhianna first died

But it is true

But it doesn’t mean you miss less, you forget less, or you hurt less

You just have to go through the motions

And you think you are ok

But I am not sure you are ever ok

As in the still of the night

When everyone is sleeping around you

And you are awake for the umpteenth time

The pain becomes unbearable

The aching hurts

And your heart aches.

You heart aches, was always a saying I heard, but I never understood

But it’s a true saying

Your heart can ache

It is a real pain in your chest

One that only a few generally know I am sure

But one that I have experienced so much in the last 19 months

It hurts and it brings everything back to reality

That truth that whatever you go on and do

Whatever happens in your life

You will always be missing your little girl!

Nothing hurts quite like that

Nothing can solve that

And no one can take that pain away