Tag: Stillbirth

Grief!

Grief!

I feel like I spend my life writing grief posts, but I suppose that is my life. Always on the edge of the cliff of grief. You never really know what is around the corner and what is coming, but you know it will come […]

Mummy Please Leave Her Tree

Mummy Please Leave Her Tree

Last week we took down the Christmas decorations and the boys were desperate not to take down Rhianna’s tree or move her table away. Boo was the first one to ask if we could keep her tree and table, and then BB agreed and then […]

Rhianna’s Star

Rhianna’s Star

At the beginning of the month we went to Winchester Christmas Market and one of the stalls were selling these gorgeous paper stars that go over your indoor lights.  I loved them all and happened to mention to Mr L that they would be a […]

One Decoration…

One Decoration…

Christmas is so hard when you have a child missing.  So hard. This year I am really finding it difficult and have already had a wobble about missing Rhianna and we are only on day five. One thing that I think is evident in everything […]

Remembering Rhianna

Remembering Rhianna

When Rhianna died one thing I was really worried about was people not remembering Rhianna, that only myself and her daddy would make an effort to remember her.  I have been proved wrong so many times when it comes to the boys.  Only last week […]

A Bad Time Of Year

A Bad Time Of Year

This time of year is never that easy having one child in heaven and two here. It is a busy time of year for us with all of us having birthdays and then just the general hustle and bustle of Christmas. Having them both in […]

Capture Your Grief – Educate

Capture Your Grief – Educate

Educate – what do you want others to know about your experience with grief, this is today’s prompt for Capture Your Grief. Where do I start… What do I want people to know? It NEVER goes away. It NEVER stops. Time heals for sure. But […]

Capture Your Grief – Rituals

Capture Your Grief – Rituals

What are some of the things you do to remember your child? I have never been a flower person. But since loosing Rhianna, we always have some sort of flower in the house. Her funeral was full of lilies. After her name. And for weeks […]

Capture Your Grief – Today

Capture Your Grief – Today

Today where am I with my grief? I am happier. I am not so tired. I feel like I do not have to consciously make an effort not to be sad anymore. I still have bad days. I will always have bad days. I am […]

Capture Your Grief – Essence

Capture Your Grief – Essence

Who is Rhianna? What is she to me? Does she have a name? What does her name mean? That is the prompts for today’s Capture Your Grief. Rhianna is our second child, our only baby girl and our girl in heaven. BB was going to […]