Tag: Baby Loss

Rhianna’s Shoes

Rhianna’s Shoes

When we got married the men all wore canvas shoes. All of them were all different colours and it took a long time to decide on the colours. I had some gorgeous shoes for the wedding and then moved into my white canvas shoes for 

A Completed Family

A Completed Family

Recently we have had lots of discussions about whether people’s families are complete and if they are done having babies. It is something I really struggle with personally. Whenever anyone asks me they get the same response, “we are done” But that doesn’t mean we are complete. We will never 

Baby Loss Awareness Week – How Can You Help…

Baby Loss Awareness Week – How Can You Help…

Today marks the start of baby loss awareness week.  1 in 4 families are affected by baby loss or infant loss, and it has come to light that many people don’t know how to offer support to people affected or are too scared to bring 

It’s Ok Not To Be Ok

It’s Ok Not To Be Ok

This last week I have struggled and I am not afraid to admit it. I have never been a sleeper, always prefer doing things late into the night rather than getting up early and doing things. But when Rhianna died, my sleeping became hideous, I 

Do You See Her?

Do You See Her?

As your lying there fixated on something Something that no one else can see Do you see her? As your chatting to thin air Do you see her? Do you feel her? Do you know she’s there? They say babies can see things Things we 

Pain

Pain

Grief is a funny thing You think you are ok Really ok And then it suddenly hits you And you don’t know what to do You are finally back a square one and everything you have achieved seems gone You don’t ever miss them less 

Photos

Photos

I love taking photos, I am a scrapbooker after all, and over the years we have thousand of pictures of Baba and the dogs, and everything else that we have done in the past. These last few days I have been sorting the pictures out. 

And They Just Flow

And They Just Flow

It doesn’t have to be a specific thing It can be the most tiniest of thing A thing that you didn’t even think would matter Hearing a song Watching a programme Smelling a flower It doesn’t have to be the big things Hearing a baby 

How A Child Copes

How A Child Copes

Since Baba has been to school, he has talked a lot about Rhianna. She stops his bad dreams, she bites them if they try to get in his room. I have had to strap her in the car as she is sitting next to him. 

Always Putting His Sister First

Always Putting His Sister First

The other weekend we asked Baba what he wanted from Santa. He looked at us both and instantly said; “I want some flowers, a balloon, and a garden stone for Rhianna!” He took both his Daddy and me by surprise. We really didn’t think it