Recently we have had lots of discussions about whether people’s families are complete and if they are done having babies. It is something I really struggle with personally. Whenever anyone asks me they get the same response, “we are done” But that doesn’t mean we are complete. We will never …
There is nothing more to say than this. I am a mother to four children. But I only have two beside me. Two physically growing in front of our eyes. But there should be six of us. Not just four. Rhianna Lily died. She died …
It doesn’t have to be a big thing. You don’t even have to be thinking about it. It just happens And you are thrown Today it was a pram Our day had been a really good day, enjoying the sun, being a family and just …
Two years ago today I was pregnant. 13 weeks and 5 days pregnant But at 13 weeks and 4 days my midwife couldn’t find the heartbeat So two years ago today Mr L and I were once again for the second time that year sat …
I had good intentions to write something every day for Baby Loss Awareness week, but unfortunately my internet died, and it was impossible for me to post anything. In some ways it may have been a good thing. I always enter Baby Loss Awareness Week …
Ever since having and loosing Rhianna Lily I have been adamant that no one forgets her name, no one stops talking about her and everyone includes her in our lives. In our family. In the greater families. We are a family with Rhianna Lily missing, …
This week is Dying Matters Awareness Week and as it is I thought that I would re air my post that I originally wrote on June 14th 2012, called “The Things People Say and Do” mainly because I still don’t think people know how to …
Being pregnant with a Rainbow baby after loosing a baby was not a thing I did well. Rhianna was in medical terms a silent late miscarriage. To me, and her daddy she was a stillbirth and our daughter and she was Baba’s sister he never …
For our first Christmas without Rhianna Lily family members brought her some lovely stones and items for her grave which Mr L and I went to get after a little while and brought home. This Christmas the amount of items that were brought was reduced …