Boo and Rhianna Lily

So last year we kept a big secret, the fact that we were having another baby.

Boo arrived on December the 3rd and was a great end to a really rubbish time in our lives. But it doesn’t mean that everything that happened disappeared.

That Rhianna Lily was forgotten.

That she never existed.

That we were now a family of four!

We will never be a family of four.

We will always be a family of five surviving as a family of four.

Always one missing

Always missing our little girl

We will never be a family of just boys

Because we aren’t we are a family of boys and Rhianna Lily, our little star.

I accept Rhianna will be mentioned less over the years

Ultimately her Daddy and I were the only ones that ever saw her

However

And its a big however

Boo will never replace her

He shouldn’t ever replace her, he is his own person in his own right and we love him for him.

We love Baba for him

And we love Rhianna for her

I am glad that he is a boy as I think a girl, would make it all the more complicated.

But to say “it’s great your now a family of four”

Or “your family is now complete”

Is wrong

We will never be a family of four

Our family will never be complete

We will always be missing one,

Always missing our little girl

And always and forever a family of five

We will never forget that

We didn’t just have Baba and Boo

We had three children Baba, Rhianna Lily and Boo

Baba went through the pain of loosing her

But Baba and Boo will go through life remembering her

After all she was and is their sister and will be forever!