Five Months On

Five months ago today we lost you

Five months ago today we held for the first and last time

Five months ago today our lives were shattered

And our hearts were broken

Five months ago your big brother stopped being a regular three-year old

And grew up over night

Worrying whether Mummy was ok and checking throughout the day if she was sad

Five months ago we lost you

Ninety Two days we haven’t had you

Ninety Two days of tears

Heartache and pain

Ninety Two days of never not thinking about you and wondering how different our lives would be.

Five months ago we had our lives mapped out

Your brother and you made our lives perfect

Five months ago we laughed and smiled and really truly meant it

Now our future is uncertain our plans have been wiped out from under us

Now our laughs are not always 100% true

In five months we have cried more than we have ever cried before

In five months we have experienced pain like we have never felt before

Five months ago we thought we knew who loved us, your brother and you

Today we 100% know who loves us, your brother and you

Today we are closer to people than we ever were before

Today we have been supported and hugged by people we never were before

Today we stand the three of us, that should be four and stand proud

It may be hard

We may all cry

And we may all be sad

But we will always be our family of four, fighting to survive as three

And by god we will survive and will fight and we will unite

We will do it all for you!

Our precious baby girl!

We all love you Rhianna Lily and can not believe it is five months already. Sleep tight angel.