Tag: Late Miscarriage

Mummy Please Leave Her Tree

Mummy Please Leave Her Tree

Last week we took down the Christmas decorations and the boys were desperate not to take down Rhianna’s tree or move her table away. Boo was the first one to ask if we could keep her tree and table, and then BB agreed and then […]

Capture Your Grief – Rituals

Capture Your Grief – Rituals

What are some of the things you do to remember your child? I have never been a flower person. But since loosing Rhianna, we always have some sort of flower in the house. Her funeral was full of lilies. After her name. And for weeks […]

Capture Your Grief – Today

Capture Your Grief – Today

Today where am I with my grief? I am happier. I am not so tired. I feel like I do not have to consciously make an effort not to be sad anymore. I still have bad days. I will always have bad days. I am […]

Capture Your Grief – Sunrise

Capture Your Grief – Sunrise

October is Pregnancy, Infant and Child Loss Month and one thing that I like to participate in every year is the Capture Your Grief project from Carly Marie Project Heal. You can read all about the project here, I have always started this project but […]

Rhianna’s Tree

Rhianna’s Tree

When Rhianna died, one of the first things Mr L said he wanted was that he wanted a tree for her in the front garden. It is something that has gone round and round with us. Shall we buy one. If we buy one what […]

Grief

Grief

One thing I hate about grief is the unpredictability of it. You can never tell when it will hit. You can never predict when you won’t be ok. And you really live your life on the edge of a cliff for the rest of your […]

The Final Goodbye

The Final Goodbye

No one should bury their child! No one should stand at a graveside and watch their child’s coffin be lowered into the ground! 6 years ago we did just that. We stood and watched. Watched the tiniest grave be filled by the tiniest coffin. No […]

The Day You Turned Six

The Day You Turned Six

Yesterday was your 6th birthday. It was not a great day. The first time that your daddy ever had to work! And it didn’t work. It was horrible. And will never happen again. We tried it. It doesn’t work. He can not be working on […]

Six Years Ago We Found Out You Were A Girl

Six Years Ago We Found Out You Were A Girl

6 years ago we found out you were a little girl. 6 years ago we decided on your name. 6 years ago our lives were so happy. So naive You feel pregnant you got a gorgeous baby at the end of it and it was […]

Miscarriage, Late Miscarriage, Stillbirth and No Birth Certificate

Miscarriage, Late Miscarriage, Stillbirth and No Birth Certificate

This past week I have been following the news about registering your baby if they are born before 24 weeks, and listened to MP Sharon Hodgson talking in parliament about her stillborn baby, who never received a birth certificate as she was born a couple […]