It’s The Little Things
Grief is a strange thing, it’s a strange thing in a normal year, in the middle of a pandemic it is an even stranger thing. It is the smallest things, that can make you think. I am not talking about falling into a flood of …
Tag: Grief
Missing You Always
The last couple of days have been quite hard for me. I don’t know why. There is no significant reason why. But I have really been missing Rhianna. There is no special birthdays coming up, there is no special events or reasons. It has just …
No One Can Tell You How To Grieve
I follow a few people who have lost children, and a few other people that are in depths of grieve. I suppose in some way it finds you. You are part of a club, that you never wanted to be included in but a club …
Today You Are Eight
Today you turn 8. In some parallel universe we would be celebrating hard, having a party. A room full of girls, screaming and laughing and having a lot of fun. Instead it’s quiet. So so quiet. There is no laughter today. Today is harder than …
Today I Have Struggled
Today I have struggled. And I am not ashamed to admit it. 8 years on some days are still a struggle. Grief doesn’t just stop. It doesn’t go away. More days are good than bad. But there are still bad days. Today was a bad …
Rhianna’s Flowers
If you have been here a while you will know that through March we always have some flowers in the house. It was something BB started a couple of years ago, just by mentioning in passing how nice it would be to have flowers in …
And It Hits You
I have been feeling out of sorts all week. I hate this time of year. There is no denying how much I hate it. Some years it’s fine. Other years it isn’t. This year is a particularly bad year. I am dreading getting closer and …
Missing You
I have been absent for a while. Truth be told I have been struggling this month. As you know I found the new year difficult, moving onto another decade, leaving the only decade Rhianna existed behind. I really struggled with it and I haven’t really …
Seven and a Half Years
Next week Rhianna would be seven and a half years old. And I have been feeling it the last couple of days. Not missing her anymore than we all miss her every moment of every single day as that is a given. We always miss …