I See You
I see you, I see you watching me, When you know I am not ok. I see you, Watching me holding back the tears. I see you, Watching me from the side. I see you, Watching me breathe through the pain. I see you, Watching …
Tag: Coping
Christmas and Grief
This weekend is mental. The next few weeks are mental. Not just a little crazy. Completely mental. And I know I have done it on purpose. It’s almost a coping mechanism nowadays. I have to charge through the month at lightening speed. Boo has made …
Does Rhianna Buy Me A Present?
It was a question an innocent question But one that had been thought about for a long time. One that had been bothering him And one that completely threw me off guard. “Mummy does Rhianna buy me a birthday present, because Boo and I buy …
Time Heals…
When Rhianna died and we were in the depths of hell we were told repeatedly, time heals, just give it time. We are now three years on and they were all lies. Time doesn’t heal. Giving grief time doesn’t make it get better, it doesn’t make …
One Pair Of Booties
Baba was told he was having a baby sister just before Mother’s Day. Most of my presents were for Rhianna Lily as well as me that Mother’s Day. I got a great big bag, all in pink for Rhianna’s things. A cd for myself. A …
Fear and Doing
Loosing Rhianna Lily has changed me. In so many different ways. I have lost friends, friends who couldn’t cope with a friend having a stillborn baby. Couldn’t cope with talking about that taboo subject Couldn’t cope with the death The funeral And all the pain …
Does Boo Look Like…
It’s a question we have always been asked One most parents are asked “Does Boo look like Baba?” It is something we hear a lot But something we hardly ever hear is “Does Boo look like Rhianna?” It is something I have been asked a …
Floored Again!!
It’s the simple things The things that you wouldn’t ordinarily give a second glance too That floor you and make you choke And hold back the tears Yesterday Baba got a letter home from school, a letter about his first school photos ” On this …
How A Child Copes
Since Baba has been to school, he has talked a lot about Rhianna. She stops his bad dreams, she bites them if they try to get in his room. I have had to strap her in the car as she is sitting next to him. …