Tag: Baby Loss

Father’s Day

Father’s Day

Father’s Day is an odd one when you have one child not with you, and have little children. We make the most of it for Baba, but it is still a sad day as there should be two cards, two sets of presents and two 

Life Goes On

Life Goes On

Life goes on It really does It is horrible to say but life does go on It doesn’t mean that you don’t care It doesn’t mean that you don’t want to cry everyday It doesn’t mean that you wont cry everyday But life still goes 

Mummy Let Me See…

Mummy Let Me See…

In the car yesterday and Baba says; “Mummy let me see what Rhianna is doing.” He closes his eyes tight.  “Oh she is having fun Mummy, she is on the art table doing art with Uncle Dave. Uncle Dave is drawing trees, our families, tractors 

Brotherly Love

Brotherly Love

From the day we were told Rhianna had died, I have worried about Baba. Everything we have ever done for Rhianna has been led by Baba, and I constantly worry about the effect her dying has had on him. Probably too much, some would say. 

Lilies

Lilies

Last year we brought lilies straight after you died, We set a plan, Lilies were the only flowers allowed at your funeral And your tiny grave was filled with them We were brought so many lilies that our kitchen table was filled to the edge 

Numb

Numb

I haven’t blogged for ages. I haven’t wanted to I haven’t had anything to say. I feel like my body has gone into shut down mode. I feel numb every time I think about Rhianna. It is like I have literally morphed back in time, 

Baba’s Poem

Baba’s Poem

For a while now Baba has been asking for a picture of Rhianna in his room, so for her birthday we have decided to do him a framed page. It will have a couple of pictures and a poem on the page for him to 

Why?

Why?

Today there are less than 20 days until your birthday This last week so many tears have been cried And we still have a couple of weeks to go There have been so many days So many hours Without you And so many tears cried 

A Year Ago…

A Year Ago…

A year ago today we had our 20 week scan, A year ago today we found out you were a little girl, A year ago today we named you Rhianna Lily, A year ago today we told your godparents we were having a girl, A 

Rhianna Lily’s Canvas

Rhianna Lily’s Canvas

Since we have lost Rhianna, actually even before we lost her, when we were still pregnant with her we have wanted some canvasses for the children. Just something special with their birth dates, names and a little information about them. We have looked at the