Six Weeks Time

Six Weeks Time

Six weeks Only six weeks until you haven’t been here for three years Six weeks until we lost you Six weeks until we held you for the first time Six weeks until we held you for the last time I should be running around trying 

If Only You Could Plan Grief

If Only You Could Plan Grief

If only you could set a day Or a time each day Where you will just feel a bit rotten The world will just be a bit too much And you can go and hide under your duvet The world will just stop Just to 

One Stocking Missing

One Stocking Missing

Having a Christmas with a child missing is really hard. And I think this year was probably the hardest. You see 2012 was the first year everyone expected it to be hard. Last year we were in a Boo bubble he was only 22 days 

Celebrating A Missing Child At Christmas

Celebrating A Missing Child At Christmas

It is something we have to think about every year! And something that does take a long time every year. How to include Rhianna Lily into our Christmas celebrations. There is a fine line to include her, but to not make Christmas all about her. 

A Dress

A Dress

Yesterday as I was looking through the many craft groups that I am a member of I saw a dress. It was nothing fancy. A little dress made for a little girl. A toddler girl. It was just a shift dress with a pleated skirt. 

Two Years Today

Two Years Today

Two years ago today I was pregnant. 13 weeks and 5 days pregnant But at 13 weeks and 4 days my midwife couldn’t find the heartbeat So two years ago today Mr L and I were once again for the second time that year sat 

Rhianna’s Photo

Rhianna’s Photo

When Rhianna was born we took 40 photos of her. She was born on a Friday, we came home on the Saturday, Sunday we printed her photos off. Sunday evening we had a photo in our bedroom along with our pictures of Baba. Since that 

Numb

Numb

From the moment I saw the two lines on the pregnancy test with Baba all I have wanted is to be a good Mummy. That is what I try to achieve every day. When Rhianna Lily died, I immediately decided the best and only way 

Baby Loss Awareness Week

Baby Loss Awareness Week

I had good intentions to write something every day for Baby Loss Awareness week, but unfortunately my internet died, and it was impossible for me to post anything. In some ways it may have been a good thing. I always enter Baby Loss Awareness Week 

Capture Your Grief 2014 – #whathealsyourheart #captureyourgrief #rhiannalily

Capture Your Grief 2014 – #whathealsyourheart #captureyourgrief #rhiannalily

Since loosing Rhianna Lily I have followed lots of blogs about baby and child loss. Especially Carly Marie it is a blog that I have loved reading. Last year I read about and followed Capture Your Grief but just wasnt in the right place to