You
All I want to do is write about you. The one thing I don’t want to do is write about you. So I say nothing. I don’t write. I stay silent. There is nothing I haven’t already said. Nothing is different. The memories are there. …
Tag: Remembering Rhianna Lily
Less Than A Week
It’s less than a week till your birthday. Less than a week till your anniversary. And this year I just don’t really know how I am feeling about it all. It’s a tough year. It’s a unique year. I think both of them are massive …
March The 7th
We’ve got to March the 7th and I haven’t actually blogged about Rhianna or her birthday month yet this year. It isn’t that I am suddenly finding March easy. But I don’t know it seems a bit different. I think after last year having her …
Babyloss Awareness Week 2020
Babyloss Awareness Week isn’t for me. It isn’t for Mr L. It isn’t for Big Bro or Boo. Babyloss awareness week isn’t for any of us, because we miss Rhianna every single day. We miss her every waking moment. We miss the girl she would …
Including Rhianna on our Holidays
It’s something you don’t really think about, missing a child and having a holiday. But it is something that comes up every year. When we go away we miss Rhianna. I remember the first time we ever went away without Rhianna the first thing that …
International Bereaved Mothers Day
Today is International Bereaved Mothers Day, I haven’t really talked about Rhianna recently because if I am honest I am finding it pretty hard. I have buried it I suppose. But having her birthday the first day of the lockdown and not being prepared to …
Missing Your Space
One thing that has come out of this lockdown is that we, like many families in similar positions, haven’t been to Rhianna’s grave since before the lockdown started. We obviously couldn’t go for her birthday as we were already in the lockdown, we didn’t go …
Rhianna and the Beach
Whenever I am having a bad day. Whenever I am missing Rhianna the hardest. I want to head to the beach. There is a pull I will never understand. A pull that the beach is her place. I just know in the depths of my …