Something For Rhianna

It has been 18 months since Rhianna Lily died, they have not been an easy 18 months, some days are good.

Some days are really bad.

And some days are just ok.

But life is very different.

It isn’t how we planned it and it isn’t what we wanted

But we cope with it

And we live with it

The best way that we can

It may not be the right way

Or the way that anyone else would do it

But it is our way

But something has been bothering me for a while now

And I brought it up for the first time with her daddy this evening

I want to do something for Rhianna

Something that will be an ongoing thing

That will be done because of her

That Baba knows we do for her, and something that he can see the results from

And will follow him into adulthood!

I am not sure what I want to do

It needs to be something that we are all happy with

And that we all want to do

But it is something that I feel I need to do

I don’t want her to just be a memory that only we talk about and no one else

I want Baba to be proud of her

And to be proud of whatever we decide to do because of her!

But pinning down what that thing will be is a hard thing to decide

And I am not sure what we should do

Her daddy isn’t too sure and until we have a couple of ideas we can’t really discuss them with Baba either

So we have a little thinking to do and we need to decide on something that is right and something that we are all comfortable with.

What that will be who knows!