Rhianna’s Due Date
Rhianna’s due date isn’t generally a date that floors me. The first year it was hell, it was all so raw, and it was only three months after she died. That was the worst time for her actual due date. Rhianna was due on the …
Tag: Life After Rhianna Lily
How Can I Make Them Understand
I am in a few baby loss groups, its like our own community, the club you have never wanted to be a member of but are for life. And something that comes up quite often is how can I make them understand, how can I …
Rhianna’s Headstone
Yesterday we spent some time discusses Rhianna’s headstone, once again. Currently she just has the plaque with her name on at her gravestone, but we really want her to eventually have a headstone. But things have always got in the way. Mainly the fact that …
Today You Are Seven
I hate going to bed the night before your birthday. I hate waking up to silence on your birthday. I hate that there is no excited girl running into our room. I hate there are no presents wrapped downstairs. I hate there are no balloons. …
Seven Years Today
Seven years today we knew your heart had stopped beating. Seven years today only family and close friends knew our pain. Seven years today we had stopped so many people in their tracks. Seven years today we laid in bed and our phones silently pinged …
Rhianna’s Flowers
For anyone that reads this blog knows that throughout March we always have flowers in our house for Rhianna’s birthday. Yesterday BB chose some more flowers for his sister. He picked flowers I would never have chosen. But ones that are really beautiful. Ones that …
Rhianna’s Flowers In March
So it is finally March. Our worst month. One that I dread starting but one that I also hate finishing. Starting the month means it is Rhianna’s birthday in a few short days. Ending the month means it isn’t Rhianna’s birthday for another year. Grief …
Our Connection
I strongly believe as a mum we have an invisible connection to our children. Since giving birth to BB and Boo I know if they are ill, or need me. The mother’s instinct. Since loosing Rhianna I don’t think anything breaks that connection. Not even …
This Time Of Year
This time of year is hard. It is a time of year that we are always ill. And it is a time of year that Mr L and I feel our worse. This month leading up to Rhianna’s birthday is a struggle. We know it …