Today is International Bereaved Mothers Day, I haven’t really talked about Rhianna recently because if I am honest I am finding it pretty hard. I have buried it I suppose. But having her birthday the first day of the lockdown and not being prepared to …
One thing that has come out of this lockdown is that we, like many families in similar positions, haven’t been to Rhianna’s grave since before the lockdown started. We obviously couldn’t go for her birthday as we were already in the lockdown, we didn’t go …
Today you turn 8. In some parallel universe we would be celebrating hard, having a party. A room full of girls, screaming and laughing and having a lot of fun. Instead it’s quiet. So so quiet. There is no laughter today. Today is harder than …
Today I have struggled. And I am not ashamed to admit it. 8 years on some days are still a struggle. Grief doesn’t just stop. It doesn’t go away. More days are good than bad. But there are still bad days. Today was a bad …
Whenever I am having a bad day. Whenever I am missing Rhianna the hardest. I want to head to the beach. There is a pull I will never understand. A pull that the beach is her place. I just know in the depths of my …
If you have been here a while you will know that through March we always have some flowers in the house. It was something BB started a couple of years ago, just by mentioning in passing how nice it would be to have flowers in …
And just like that it’s March again. The month that is notoriously a bad month. One that I dread. One that I hate. But one that I have to get through every year. I never know how to tackle March. I never know how I …
Yesterday Boo had a friend round and after we had spent the day at the farm we came home and they played and we did some art together. I got out the hama beads, that we haven’t had out for ages and ages to be …