Who Am I?

I started this blog many years ago, just to write.

I was bored I was at home with Baba and Mr L was working and I wanted some different conversations, somewhere else to get my thoughts out, and I wanted something to read back on over the years.

I wanted to be able to show Baba the silly things that he did the things he said and what he had achieved when he was younger.

It started out as us and him.

And it grew, I had forgotten how much I loved to write and loved to create. The blog gave me a chance to do both. It gave me the opportunity to get paid for writing and to start my own business, to develop Scrapbookerry and to get it to the point it is now.

I made friends with other mothers, crafters and business owners, who in their own parts of the world were doing the same thing as me. Getting our thoughts out, our crazy moments, (both good and bad) and letting us express ourselves.

When we fell pregnant with Rhianna we announced it on here, when we lost Rhianna you all stood by us and felt our loss with us.

I knew Rhianna was a massive part of my blogging life, and had to be included. But she was included like she is in life, with us but a thousand miles apart. She was part of the blog but deserved her own space, a space for just our special girl!

So it became us, him and her, with just a little link hop between us.

I lost my way for a bit I couldn’t write what I wanted to write about I couldn’t tempt fate and I couldn’t tell the world there was another baby coming, I pottered along, but the words couldn’t flow as all I wanted to write about I couldn’t.

But then Boo finally made an appearance and he was finally talked about and my block lifted I could say everything I wanted and I could write again.

So it became us, him and her, and another him. With all the animals in-between.

In the time I first set my fingers to the keys, I have started a business, brought up a baby to a child, lost a baby, buried a baby, lost a friend, had another dog, had another baby and lost a dog.

I am not the person who started this blog.

I have separated my craft I have separated Rhianna and they all make me.

I am a different person to that person all those years ago, but I am the same, however I am not sure right now where this person is going.

I am always going to be mum, partner, and in that god awful club of a baby loss mum. I am always going to write, and I am always going to craft.

But somewhere in my life, somewhere in these years I have got a little lost.

And it is time to find me again.

Time to enjoy what I am doing, to laugh, to not be so stressed and to have time to watch.

To enjoy the children and see them grow.

Time to write about them again, and to talk about the silly things they do.

It’s just time to get back to being me

I am not sure what that me needs

But I am sure I need to find her again!