Going Through The Motions

It’s definitely a week where I am going through the motions.

It isn’t a week that I am feeling festive at all.

Maybe it is covid related.

I am sure some of it is that that.

It isn’t all that though.

I think I am missing what we haven’t had this year.

I am missing the freedom.

I am missing family.

I am missing friends.

I am missing normality.

I am going through the motions to get things done and be ready for the big day.

I am doing it for the boys.

But I am not feeling it.

I am not feeling it at all.

I am struggling to feel festive when so many others are broken.

I am struggling to feel festive when so much of our lives is unknown.

I am struggling to feel festive when I am not sure what is around the corner.

I am going through the motions.

But it is like no other year ever.

It’s hard to be upbeat.

It’s hard to be happy.

When life is so very different this year.

I am staying positive.

I am getting everything ready.

But it’s just so strange.

So odd.

So very weird.

I am doing day by day.

I am doing everything I need to do.

But I am not at all festive.

I am struggling to find the festive bits inside me.

But I am going through the motions.