Fifteen days ago, we brought our first bunch of flowers for Rhianna Lily. Fifteen days later, they are still going strong, and have just started to turn. They have been the longest bunch of flowers ever. They are still looking beautiful. And brighten up our …
Yesterday I wrote about Baba’s idea of a month of flowers for Rhianna Lily. Today I saw these flowers in our front garden. At first I didn’t know what they were and was baffled where they had come from. Then after some chatting with a …
It’s March and it has hit hard. Last week I didn’t sleep at all to be honest, and then went down with a horrible viral thing, that I just could not shake. It’s strange how your body deals with grief and how it makes you …
One thing I have learnt since Rhianna died is that every year since it isn’t just her birthday that is hard. It is something that lasts for such a long time. And Mr L and I literally have to drag ourselves through a long time …
These last two weeks have flown by and before I have known it, the day has gone and I haven’t really stopped. It has been my birthday which was lovely, I had a birthday that fell on the weekend which meant that all the boys …
This week Coronation Street are doing a stillbirth storyline, or a technically speaking ‘late miscarriage’ I hate this term with a passion and will discuss it more in a bit. I am not a massive Coronation Street fan, if it is on I will watch …
Five years ago today we announced you to the world At 12 weeks and 3 days it was safe to do so Today it popped up on my memories on Facebook A simple photo and a statement A loaded statement with so many dreams attached …
Stillbirth is hearing the words, ‘we are sorry there is no heartbeat’ Stillbirth is being told there isn’t an option for a caesarean that a natural birth is better for your body and for you. Stillbirth is waiting a few days for a natural labour …
Last week Baba started year three and there was a significant missing piece this year. I tried my hardest not to let Rhianna being missing to overshadow the day, but it was flipping hard to not let it all be about her. It was a …
I have always loved peacocks. Something about a peacock is so magical and amazing. They are stunning, beautiful and magnificent animals and something I am always in awe of when I see them. Since loosing Rhianna they have become more magical. More of a sign …