Mother’s Day
Mother’s day is always a hard one for me. Probably the hardest day of the year. Rhianna’s birthday is hell, but it is all about her. I can cry, scream and be unhappy because it is her day. Christmas day is never fun, but the …
Life Without Rhianna Lily
Flowers, Flowers, Flowers
Once again we are doing a month of flowers for Rhiannas birthday month. Remembering Rhianna isn’t about big massive gestures. Or a huge list of a backbone of memories. We don’t have them. We have one days worth to fill a lifetime. Remembering Rhianna is …
Sleep, or Lack of Sleep
March the month that sleep and I fall out. I love sleep. I have always struggled to go to sleep but absolutely love sleeping. I have always been a night owl, and life would suit me much better if the world started at 10am! But …
Six Years Ago We Found Out You Were A Girl
6 years ago we found out you were a little girl. 6 years ago we decided on your name. 6 years ago our lives were so happy. So naive You feel pregnant you got a gorgeous baby at the end of it and it was …
Six Years!
Tomorrow is a month until Rhianna Lily’s birthday. Tomorrow is a month until her anniversary. One month until she should be six. Instead we have lived 6 years without her, 6 years without any of her smiles, cuddles, laughter, tears, and just her growing. 6 …
Miscarriage, Late Miscarriage, Stillbirth and No Birth Certificate
This past week I have been following the news about registering your baby if they are born before 24 weeks, and listened to MP Sharon Hodgson talking in parliament about her stillborn baby, who never received a birth certificate as she was born a couple …
A Completed Family
Recently we have had lots of discussions about whether people’s families are complete and if they are done having babies. It is something I really struggle with personally. Whenever anyone asks me they get the same response, “we are done” But that doesn’t mean we are complete. We will never …
Rhianna Lily’s Birthday
Last week was Rhianna’s birthday. And as per usual it was a hard week. We spent a lot of the week trying to decide what to do for her birthday because for the first time since her first birthday Mr L and I were on …
New Flowers for Rhianna Lily
I decided yesterday that Rhianna’s flowers that Boo picked on the first of the month would need to be replaced today. After Baba had cubs we had to nip to the shops, and we decided then that he would choose her next bunch of flowers …