Another Weigh In

Yesterday was weigh in day for Slimming World and I wasn’t expecting a loss.

I wasn’t expecting a 3lb gain either.

When I saw it on the scales after everything else I felt this week I was really upset. Especially as Mr L lost half a pound as well that made me feel even worse.

I walked out of the weigh in last night in tears and adamant I wasn’t ever going to go back again.

After looking at my book I have put on 8lbs in a month and I was and am still fed up.

Last night I resigned myself to just being overweight and leaving it all.

I am not over it yet, I can say that I am.

I have my for and against list to fill out that my consultant gave me last night but to be honest I am in no fit state mentally to fill that out at the moment.

I am annoyed and fed up.

I really am.

Mr tried to speak to me about it and I told him I couldn’t bare to discuss it last night.

He left me too it but told me I wasn’t giving up, we would meal plan, we would write everything down and we would get back on track.

But for last night to just forget about it.

I got the same advice from another friend last night.

Do what I needed to do last night and then meal plan and get back on track.

Last night I had a Macdonald’s and had some ice cream and tried not to think about it.

Today I have got out my book to write down what I am eating everyday and done a quick plan for the week for food each day.

I have written down my breakfast and planned the rest of the day and most of the next week.

I am going through the motions.

I am raging about my gain, I am annoyed at myself and totally fed up with this gaining every week.

I am not by any means feeling ok about Slimming World at the moment.

I am lucky in that Mr L is doing it as well and he is making sure I go back, if I was on my own I would have stopped last night. But I am not as he is going next week so I will be going with him.

I need to do my for and against list I may attempt it tonight. But right now and last night I really was not in the right frame of mind to complete that at all as my against list would have been huge.

So this week is a week to go through the motions.

Write down everything I eat and drink and see how I go from there.