Slimming World Struggles

So a few weeks ago I got my 3 stone award and was so so pleased with myself.

Then I put on 3.5lbs and went back into the 2st loss bracket, then I put on a 1lb, lost a little bit, put on more, lost a little and put on again and again.

And I have really got into a bit of a spiral with it.

Mr L hasn’t been doing fantastic at Slimming World recently for other reasons mainly his health and that has to come first and I get that but when I blamed him for not doing well with my own Slimming World journey I knew I had hit a problem.

I can’t base my Slimming World journey on someone else.

Yes doing it with Mr L has it perks, we can boost each other along and pull each other out of bad days if we are both in the right place. But when one of you isn’t 100% on plan because of reasons beyond your control the other can’t be blaming that one of you for their lack of being on plan either.

And I knew that something had to change.

I know what I am doing.

I am desperate to get back into that 3 stone loss bracket, and have put on pressure that I didn’t need to put on myself but now it is there. And everytime I walk into the weigh room and put on weight, I self sabotage for the week. I eat not badly but definitely above my syns, and not counting them.

And the cycle starts all over again when I put on weight the next week.

I know that I need to stay to group I know that I need to get focused, but my head is so not in it.

It is so far from being in the right place that I even contemplated stopping going altogether. But again I know that if I do that I will put everything on that I have lost and some.

So I did the only other thing I could do and reached out to my consultant.

She was amazing and we had a good chat, and she said that I should stay to group, which I know, it isn’t always easy when you are both going to group, but also really is no point while I am in this head space. As to be totally honest the world and his wife can tell me what to do. But it doesn’t mean I will do it as I am just not in the right space.

So instead tomorrow I will go an get weighed and take away the pros and cons form and am going to sit down with no distractions and have a good think about the pros and cons of going to Slimming World and work on getting my head back in the right place.

I don’t want to leave. But I know that I want to change to how I am thinking and that I need to change how I am thinking.

Which actually is huge, as I have done Slimming World before many years ago after I had BB and I left when I got to this point, I got here a lot quicker last time, but this time I am not just walking as I don’t want to. But something needs to change.

I need to get my head back in the right space and I need to get focused once again.