Where Has It Gone

This isn’t a post about where the year has gone. It’s a post about where my umpf and spirit has gone.

I am feeling incredible deflated I have lost all of my Christmas spirit. I haven’t written a single card! I haven’t even made a single card. I just can’t seem to find the enthusiasm to do any of it to be honest. No decorations are up and the sorting of the house has come to a stand still. The lounge and kitchen have been done but the bedrooms and the new study/paperwork area I don’t even know where to start maybe that is why I have come to a standstill.

I have lost my creative juices I haven’t made anything for days and do have a couple of orders to do before Christmas for family and friends but I just can’t be bothered.

That is actually my view on everything at the moment. I just can’t be bothered.

Baba went into hospital bonfire night with a cold, I got it the week after and I still have it now. I just can’t seem to shift it. Every night I wake up at least twice leaving me oh so tired. It is getting to me and I just want it to go. I don’t want to feel this tired I don’t have the time. I don’t want to still have this cold.

I need to find my motivation I need to find my Christmas spirit. I need to turn on the computer and promote promote promote Scrapbookerry and I need to study. I just need to find something that will pull me out of not being bothered and then it will be all ok.