Lost!

For quite a while I have been feeling a bit meh!

Not really knowing what I was doing, or where I was going and just feeling a bit lost really.

But I haven’t known why I was feeling lost.

And to be honest I still don’t really.

Although I have wondered if it is a grieve thing.

I feel like I am always reaching for something I don’t have.

But that will always be the case

I will always be wanting my third child

And never having her here or near us.

I have wondered if the feeling lost was because of that.

But it almost seems more in a way.

And I am not sure what.

I know there is nothing within Mr L and the boys that is missing. I love my life with them.

I miss their sister but they are all perfect.

But something is missing, something is lost.

I think I have narrowed it down to a couple of things, one being this blog, one being Scrapbookerry.

I love them both

And neither is disappearing but I am not really sure the direction either is going in

So they are plodding along

And I just can’t seem to work out where they are going, where they should be going and what I can do with them.

It is something that I have been stuck with for a while I think but have tried to ignore it.

But now I am a Tropic Ambassador I have got the fire in my belly for it, I want the world and his wife to use Tropic and I want to tell everyone about it. I love it.

And it is going really well.

But it has also highlighted that Scrapbookerry and blogging is a little lost.

And I am just not really sure which way either of them are going to go, or either way they need to go!

And to be honest I am not really sure how to work out which route to take either!