It’s Still Here

I thought I was getting over the worst of this virus thing, but last night it seems to have come back with a vengeance. I hardly slept and coughed most of the night through, meaning that this morning my throat was hoarser and more painful than it has been all week.

Swallowing feels like razors are going down my throat, and I think today is finally the day that I am going to have to give in and get some paracetamol and see if it makes a difference. I am just fed up of being ill, it has been 2 weeks now and I don’t think, “your pregnant it will obviously take longer to get over” comment from the doctor was really that helpful to be honest! I could have told myself that thanks. But even so something needs to be done, I have so many things that are piling up and annoying me and I need to get sorted. So I am going to try to see if some paracetamol helps, I may even ring the midwife and see if there is anything else that I can take.

I just want to get on top of this thing now, I know the whole world seems to have it, but it is really making me get really down and depressed. I am fed up of Mr L ringing and asking how we are and I just moan and groan, I have nothing else to say. I am fed up of having to cancel to see people, who all have teeny tiny babies, as I don’t want to pass anything on. Baba and I have only seen family for two weeks now, and I think he is as bored of my company as I am of his to be honest. We have major cabin fever and would both like to be getting on and doing other things!

But unfortunately at the moment we can’t we are stuck, and are both feeling a little bit rough, well me worse than Baba to be honest. But he is still not 100%. I would just like us to all get over this now and feel better, be better and be back to our usual selves. I don’t have the energy to argue with him, and he is causing mayhem in the house, because I just don’t have the energy to run around and clean up after him. I hate it, I hate the mess, I hate the look Mr L has when he comes in, he doesn’t say a word but I can tell by his face that he isn’t happy. He hates the mess as well and it just puts a downer on everything.

Last night I was having a quick look online, and found something that I have been looking for for ages, I have been doing a little research as I haven’t been able to craft for so long, with a bad back and virus. I have been researching some ideas that I have had in the past. Last night I finally found what I was looking for and now have a head full of ideas and plans, when I will ever have time to implement them is another story. But I am trying my hardest that is for sure. I have a new direction for the business at long last and I am excited about it, but it is going to take a long time to get the plans sorted and the ideas in place. But before I can start any of this I need to be better there is no point trying to start any of these things when I am only 40% well as I will get really stressed and annoyed when I have to stop working on something as I feel so poorly so I need to be better for it all! And it is annoying me that it is still here and wont go away!