I am here

I know it doesn’t seem like it but I am here.

I am just very quiet.

As I don’t really have a lot to say.

I don’t really know why.

But at the moment I just don’t.

I think this past year is just catching up with me.

And I have spent a lot of this year just trying to work out what I am doing, where I am going and what is the next plan.

I know I can do more than I am.

But have completely blocked myself with what I can do to move forward.

I have bored friends and family talking about it, I bore myself talking about it.

I feel I am on the cusp of something but just not sure what it is going to be or what I am going to do.

So I have been quietly doing things to try to work it out.

I have been working through things that have needed to be done at home.

I have sorted out the shower room, the last room in the house that needed to be sorted.

I sorted the coat cupboard.

I sorted the shoe cupboard.

I finished some training that I have been sat on for ages now.

And have tried to get things organised.

I am a firm believer in tidy house, tidy mind and have tried to make that happen.

I am kind off coming to some conclusions about what I am going to do and my next steps but am not 100% there yet.

Maybe its because I have turned 40 and feel like I should have done something amazing by now.

Who knows but it has been going around and around in my head for months now and I think I just needed to step away stop things and sort a few things to have a bit of a break to focus on this one thing that has been in the back of my head for a while.

I am not sorted but I am feeling better and a bit calmer about it all!

So I am still here, just a little quieter at the moment!

But I have missed this so felt I had to come back before it was just too long!

So here I am dipping my toe back in.

Hello, I am here!